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When God Laughs and Other Stories
By Jack London
CONTENTS
WHEN GOD LAUGHS
THE APOSTATE
A WICKED WOMAN
JUST MEAT
CREATED HE THEM
THE CHINAGO
MAKE WESTING
SEMPER IDEM
A NOSE FOR THE KING
THE "FRANCIS SPAIGHT"
A CURIOUS FRAGMENT
A PIECE OF STEAK
WHEN GOD LAUGHS (with compliments to
Harry Cowell)
"The gods, the gods are stronger;
time
Falls down before them, all men's knees
Bow, all men's prayers and sorrows climb
Like incense toward them; yea, for these
Are gods, Felise."
Carquinez had relaxed finally. He stole
a glance at the rattling windows,
looked upward at the beamed roof, and listened for a moment to
the savage
roar of the south-easter as it caught the bungalow in its bellowing
jaws.
Then he held his glass between him and the fire and laughed for
joy through
the golden wine.
"It is beautiful," he said.
"It is sweetly sweet. It is a woman's wine,
and it was made for gray-robed saints to drink."
"We grow it on our own warm hills,"
I said, with pardonable California
pride. "You rode up yesterday through the vines from which
it was made."
It was worth while to get Carquinez to
loosen up. Nor was he ever really
himself until he felt the mellow warmth of the vine singing in
his blood.
He was an artist, it is true, always an artist; but somehow,
sober, the
high pitch and lilt went out of his thought-processes and he
was prone to
be as deadly dull as a British Sunday--not dull as other men
are dull, but
dull when measured by the sprightly wight that Monte Carquinez
was when he
was really himself.
From all this it must not be inferred that
Carquinez, who is my dear friend
and dearer comrade, was a sot. Far from it. He rarely erred.
As I have
said, he was an artist. He knew when he had enough, and enough,
with him,
was equilibrium--the equilibrium that is yours and mine when
we are sober.
His was a wise and instinctive temperateness
that savoured of the Greek.
Yet he was far from Greek. "I am Aztec, I am Inca, I am
Spaniard," I have
heard him say. And in truth he looked it, a compound of strange
and
ancient races, what with his swarthy skin and the asymmetry and
primitiveness of his features. His eyes, under massively arched
brows,
were wide apart and black with the blackness that is barbaric,
while before
them was perpetually falling down a great black mop of hair through
which
he gazed like a roguish satyr from a thicket. He invariably
wore a soft
flannel shirt under his velvet-corduroy jacket, and his necktie
was red.
This latter stood for the red flag (he had once lived with the
socialists
of Paris), and it symbolized the blood and brotherhood of man.
Also, he
had never been known to wear anything on his head save a leather-banded
sombrero. It was even rumoured that he had been born with this
particular
piece of headgear. And in my experience it was provocative of
nothing
short of sheer delight to see that Mexican sombrero hailing a
cab in
Piccadilly or storm-tossed in the crush for the New York Elevated.
As I have said, Carquinez was made quick
by wine--"as the clay was made
quick when God breathed the breath of life into it," was
his way of saying
it. I confess that he was blasphemously intimate with God; and
I must add
that there was no blasphemy in him. He was at all times honest,
and,
because he was compounded of paradoxes, greatly misunderstood
by those who
did not know him. He could be as elementally raw at times as
a screaming
savage; and at other times as delicate as a maid, as subtle as
a Spaniard.
And--well, was he not Aztec? Inca? Spaniard?
And now I must ask pardon for the space
I have given him. (He is my
friend, and I love him.) The house was shaking to the storm,
as he drew
closer to the fire and laughed at it through his wine. He looked
at me,
and by the added lustre of his eye, and by the alertness of it,
I knew that
at last he was pitched in his proper key.
"And so you think you've won out against
the gods?" he demanded.
"Why the gods?"
"Whose will but theirs has put satiety
upon man?" he cried.
"And whence the will in me to escape
satiety?" I asked triumphantly.
"Again the gods," he laughed.
"It is their game we play. They deal and
shuffle all the cards . . . and take the stakes. Think not that
you have
escaped by fleeing from the mad cities. You with your vine-clad
hills,
your sunsets and your sunrises, your homely fare and simple round
of
living!
"I've watched you ever since I came.
You have not won. You have
surrendered. You have made terms with the enemy. You have made
confession
that you are tired. You have flown the white flag of fatigue.
You have
nailed up a notice to the effect that life is ebbing down in
you. You have
run away from life. You have played a trick, shabby trick.
You have
balked at the game. You refuse to play. You have thrown your
cards under
the table and run away to hide, here amongst your hills."
He tossed his straight hair back from his
flashing eyes, and scarcely
interrupted to roll a long, brown, Mexican cigarette.
"But the gods know. It is an old
trick. All the generations of man have
tried it . . . and lost. The gods know how to deal with such
as you. To
pursue is to possess, and to possess is to be sated. And so
you, in your
wisdom, have refused any longer to pursue. You have elected
surcease.
Very well. You will become sated with surcease. You say you
have escaped
satiety! You have merely bartered it for senility. And senility
is
another name for satiety. It is satiety's masquerade. Bah!"
"But look at me!" I cried.
Carquinez was ever a demon for haling ones
soul out and making rags and
tatters of it.
He looked me witheringly up and down.
"You see no signs," I challenged.
"Decay is insidious," he retorted.
"You are rotten ripe."
I laughed and forgave him for his very
deviltry. But he refused to be
forgiven.
"Do I not know?" he asked. "The
gods always win. I have watched men play
for years what seemed a winning game. In the end they lost."
"Don't you ever make mistakes?"
I asked.
He blew many meditative rings of smoke
before replying.
"Yes, I was nearly fooled, once.
Let me tell you. There was Marvin Fiske.
You remember him? And his Dantesque face and poet's soul, singing
his
chant of the flesh, the very priest of Love? And there was Ethel
Baird,
whom also you must remember."
"A warm saint," I said.
"That is she! Holy as Love, and sweeter!
Just a woman, made for love; and
yet--how shall I say?--drenched through with holiness as your
own air here
is with the perfume of flowers. Well, they married. They played
a hand
with the gods--"
"And they won, they gloriously won!"
I broke in.
Carquinez looked at me pityingly, and his
voice was like a funeral bell.
"They lost. They supremely, colossally
lost."
"But the world believes otherwise,"
I ventured coldly.
"The world conjectures. The world
sees only the face of things. But I
know. Has it ever entered your mind to wonder why she took the
veil,
buried herself in that dolorous convent of the living dead?"
"Because she loved him so, and when
he died . . ."
Speech was frozen on my lips by Carquinez's
sneer.
"A pat answer," he said, "machine-made
like a piece of cotton-drill. The
world's judgment! And much the world knows about it. Like you,
she fled
from life. She was beaten. She flung out the white flag of
fatigue. And
no beleaguered city ever flew that flag in such bitterness and
tears.
"Now I shall tell you the whole tale,
and you must believe me, for I know.
They had pondered the problem of satiety. They loved Love.
They knew to
the uttermost farthing the value of Love. They loved him so
well that they
were fain to keep him always, warm and a-thrill in their hearts.
They
welcomed his coming; they feared to have him depart.
"Love was desire, they held, a delicious
pain. He was ever seeking
easement, and when he found that for which he sought, he died.
Love denied
was Love alive; Love granted was Love deceased. Do you follow
me? They
saw it was not the way of life to be hungry for what it has.
To eat and
still be hungry--man has never accomplished that feat. The problem
of
satiety. That is it. To have and to keep the sharp famine-edge
of
appetite at the groaning board. This was their problem, for
they loved
Love. Often did they discuss it, with all Love's sweet ardours
brimming in
their eyes; his ruddy blood spraying their cheeks; his voice
playing in and
out with their voices, now hiding as a tremolo in their throats,
and again
shading a tone with that ineffable tenderness which he alone
can utter.
"How do I know all this? I saw--much.
More I learned from her diary.
This I found in it, from Fiona Macleod: 'For, truly, that wandering
voice,
that twilight-whisper, that breath so dewy-sweet, that flame-winged
lute-
player whom none sees but for a moment, in a rainbow-shimmer
of joy, or a
sudden lightning-flare of passion, this exquisite mystery we
call Amor,
comes, to some rapt visionaries at least, not with a song upon
the lips
that all may hear, or with blithe viol of public music, but as
one wrought
by ecstasy, dumbly eloquent with desire.'
"How to keep the flame-winged lute-player
with his dumb eloquence of
desire? To feast him was to lose him. Their love for each other
was a
great love. Their granaries were overflowing with plenitude;
yet they
wanted to keep the sharp famine-edge of their love undulled.
"Nor were they lean little fledglings
theorizing on the threshold of Love.
They were robust and realized souls. They had loved before,
with others,
in the days before they met; and in those days they had throttled
Love with
caresses, and killed him with kisses, and buried him in the pit
of satiety.
"They were not cold wraiths, this
man and woman. They were warm human.
They had no Saxon soberness in their blood. The colour of it
was sunset-
red. They glowed with it. Temperamentally theirs was the French
joy in
the flesh. They were idealists, but their idealism was Gallic.
It was not
tempered by the chill and sombre fluid that for the English serves
as
blood. There was no stoicism about them. They were Americans,
descended
out of the English, and yet the refraining and self-denying of
the English
spirit-groping were not theirs.
"They were all this that I have said,
and they were made for joy, only they
achieved a concept. A curse on concepts! They played with logic,
and this
was their logic.--But first let me tell you of a talk we had
one night. It
was of Gautier's Madeline de Maupin. You remember the maid?
She kissed
once, and once only, and kisses she would have no more. Not
that she found
kisses were not sweet, but that she feared with repetition they
would cloy.
Satiety again! She tried to play without stakes against the
gods. Now
this is contrary to a rule of the game the gods themselves have
made. Only
the rules are not posted over the table. Mortals must play in
order to
learn the rules.
"Well, to the logic. The man and
the woman argued thus: Why kiss once
only? If to kiss once were wise, was it not wiser to kiss not
at all?
Thus could they keep Love alive. Fasting, he would knock forever
at their
hearts.
"Perhaps it was out of their heredity
that they achieved this unholy
concept. The breed will out and sometimes most fantastically.
Thus in
them did cursed Albion array herself a scheming wanton, a bold,
cold-
calculating, and artful hussy. After all, I do not know. But
this I know:
it was out of their inordinate desire for joy that they forewent
joy.
"As he said (I read it long afterward
in one of his letters to her): 'To
hold you in my arms, close, and yet not close. To yearn for
you, and never
to have you, and so always to have you.' And she: 'For you
to be always
just beyond my reach. To be ever attaining you, and yet never
attaining
you, and for this to last forever, always fresh and new, and
always with
the first flush upon us.
"That is not the way they said it.
On my lips their love-philosophy is
mangled. And who am I to delve into their soul-stuff? I am
a frog, on the
dank edge of a great darkness, gazing goggle-eyed at the mystery
and wonder
of their flaming souls.
"And they were right, as far as they
went. Everything is good . . . as
long as it is unpossessed. Satiety and possession are Death's
horses; they
run in span.
"'And time could only tutor us
to eke
Our rapture's warmth with custom's afterglow.'
"They got that from a sonnet of Alfred
Austin's. It was called 'Love's
Wisdom.' It was the one kiss of Madeline de Maupin. How did
it run?
"'Kiss we and part; no further
can we go;
And better death than we from high to low
Should dwindle, or decline from strong to weak.'
"But they were wiser. They would
not kiss and part. They would not kiss
at all, and thus they planned to stay at Love's topmost peak.
They
married. You were in England at the time. And never was there
such a
marriage. They kept their secret to themselves. I did not know,
then.
Their rapture's warmth did not cool. Their love burned with
increasing
brightness. Never was there anything like it. The time passed,
the
months, the years, and ever the flame-winged lute-player grew
more
resplendent.
"Everybody marvelled. They became
the wonderful lovers, and they were
greatly envied. Sometimes women pitied her because she was childless;
it
is the form the envy of such creatures takes.
"And I did not know their secret.
I pondered and I marvelled. As first I
had expected, subconsciously I imagine, the passing of their
love. Then I
became aware that it was Time that passed and Love that remained.
Then I
became curious. What was their secret? What were the magic
fetters with
which they bound Love to them? How did they hold the graceless
elf? What
elixir of eternal love had they drunk together as had Tristram
and Iseult
of old time? And whose hand had brewed the fairy drink?
"As I say, I was curious, and I watched
them. They were love-mad. They
lived in an unending revel of Love. They made a pomp and ceremonial
of it.
They saturated themselves in the art and poetry of Love. No,
they were not
neurotics. They were sane and healthy, and they were artists.
But they
had accomplished the impossible. They had achieved deathless
desire.
"And I? I saw much of them and their
everlasting miracle of Love. I
puzzled and wondered, and then one day--"
Carquinez broke off abruptly and asked,
"Have you ever read, 'Love's
Waiting Time'?"
I shook my head.
"Page wrote it--Curtis Hidden Page,
I think. Well, it was that bit of
verse that gave me the clue. One day, in the window-seat near
the big
piano--you remember how she could play? She used to laugh, sometimes,
and
doubt whether it was for them I came, or for the music. She
called me a
'music-sot' once, a 'sound-debauchee.' What a voice he had!
When he sang
I believed in immortality, my regard for the gods grew almost
patronizing
and I devised ways and means whereby I surely could outwit them
and their
tricks.
"It was a spectacle for God, that
man and woman, years married, and singing
love-songs with a freshness virginal as new-born Love himself,
with a
ripeness and wealth of ardour that young lovers can never know.
Young
lovers were pale and anaemic beside that long-married pair.
To see them,
all fire and flame and tenderness, at a trembling distance, lavishing
caresses of eye and voice with every action, through every silence--their
love driving them toward each other, and they withholding like
fluttering
moths, each to the other a candle-flame, and revolving each about
the other
in the mad gyrations of an amazing orbit-flight! It seemed,
in obedience
to some great law of physics, more potent than gravitation and
more subtle,
that they must corporeally melt each into each there before my
very eyes.
Small wonder they were called the wonderful lovers.
"I have wandered. Now to the clue.
One day in the window-seat I found a
book of verse. It opened of itself, betraying long habit, to
'Love's
Waiting Time.' The page was thumbed and limp with overhandling,
and there
I read:--
"'So sweet it is to stand but
just apart,
To know each other better, and to keep
The soft, delicious sense of two that touch . . .
O love, not yet! . . . Sweet, let
us keep our love
Wrapped round with sacred mystery awhile,
Waiting the secret of the coming years,
That come not yet, not yet . . . sometime . . .
not yet . . .
Oh, yet a little while our love
may grow!
When it has blossomed it will haply die.
Feed it with lipless kisses, let it sleep,
Bedded in dead denial yet some while . . .
Oh, yet a little while, a little while.'
"I folded the book on my thumb and
sat there silent and without moving for
a long time. I was stunned by the clearness of vision the verse
had
imparted to me. It was illumination. It was like a bolt of
God's
lightning in the Pit. They would keep Love, the fickle sprite,
the
forerunner of young life--young life that is imperative to be
born!
"I conned the lines over in my mind--'Not
yet, sometime'--'O Love, not
yet'--'Feed it with lipless kisses, let it sleep.' And I laughed
aloud,
ha, ha! I saw with white vision their blameless souls. They
were
children. They did not understand. They played with Nature's
fire and
bedded with a naked sword. They laughed at the gods. They would
stop the
cosmic sap. They had invented a system, and brought it to the
gaming-table
of life, and expected to win out. 'Beware!' I cried. 'The gods
are behind
the table. They make new rules for every system that is devised.
You have
no chance to win.'
"But I did not so cry to them. I
waited. They would learn that their
system was worthless and throw it away. They would be content
with
whatever happiness the gods gave them and not strive to wrest
more away.
"I watched. I said nothing. The
months continued to come and go, and
still the famine-edge of their love grew the sharper. Never
did they dull
it with a permitted love-clasp. They ground and whetted it on
self-denial,
and sharper and sharper it grew. This went on until even I doubted.
Did
the gods sleep? I wondered. Or were they dead? I laughed to
myself. The
man and the woman had made a miracle. They had outwitted God.
They had
shamed the flesh, and blackened the face of the good Earth Mother.
They
had played with her fire and not been burned. They were immune.
They were
themselves gods, knowing good from evil and tasting not. 'Was
this the way
gods came to be?' I asked myself. 'I am a frog,' I said. 'But
for my mud-
lidded eyes I should have been blinded by the brightness of this
wonder I
have witnessed. I have puffed myself up with my wisdom and passed
judgment
upon gods.'
"Yet even in this, my latest wisdom,
I was wrong. They were not gods.
They were man and woman--soft clay that sighed and thrilled,
shot through
with desire, thumbed with strange weaknesses which the gods have
not."
Carquinez broke from his narrative to roll
another cigarette and to laugh
harshly. It was not a pretty laugh; it was like the mockery
of a devil,
and it rose over and rode the roar of the storm that came muffled
to our
ears from the crashing outside world.
"I am a frog," he said apologetically.
"How were they to understand? They
were artists, not biologists. They knew the clay of the studio,
but they
did not know the clay of which they themselves were made. But
this I will
say--they played high. Never was there such a game before, and
I doubt me
if there will ever be such a game again.
"Never was lovers' ecstasy like theirs.
They had not killed Love with
kisses. They had quickened him with denial. And by denial they
drove him
on till he was all aburst with desire. And the flame-winged
lute-player
fanned them with his warm wings till they were all but swooning.
It was
the very delirium of Love, and it continued undiminished and
increasing
through the weeks and months.
"They longed and yearned, with all
the fond pangs and sweet delicious
agonies, with an intensity never felt by lovers before nor since.
"And then one day the drowsy gods
ceased nodding. They aroused and looked
at the man and woman who had made a mock of them. And the man
and woman
looked into each other's eyes one morning and knew that something
was gone.
It was the flame-winged one. He had fled, silently, in the night,
from
their anchorites' board.
"They looked into each other's eyes
and knew that they did not care.
Desire was dead. Do you understand? Desire was dead. And they
had never
kissed. Not once had they kissed. Love was gone. They would
never yearn
and burn again. For them there was nothing left--no more tremblings
and
flutterings and delicious anguishes, no more throbbing and pulsing,
and
sighing and song. Desire was dead. It had died in the night,
on a couch
cold and unattended; nor had they witnessed its passing. They
learned it
for the first time in each other's eyes.
"The gods may not be kind, but they
are often merciful. They had twirled
the little ivory ball and swept the stakes from the table. All
that
remained was the man and woman gazing into each other's cold
eyes. And
then he died. That was the mercy. Within the week Marvin Fiske
was dead--
you remember the accident. And in her diary, written at this
time, I long
afterward read Mitchell Kennerly's:--
"'There was not a single hour
We might have kissed and did not kiss.'"
"Oh, the irony of it!" I cried
out.
And Carquinez, in the firelight a veritable
Mephistopheles in velvet
jacket, fixed me with his black eyes.
"And they won, you said? The world's
judgment! I have told you, and I
know. They won as you are winning, here in your hills."
"But you," I demanded hotly;
"you with your orgies of sound and sense, with
your mad cities and madder frolics--bethink you that you win?"
He shook his head slowly. "Because
you with your sober bucolic regime,
lose, is no reason that I should win. We never win. Sometimes
we think we
win. That is a little pleasantry of the gods."
THE APOSTATE
"Now I wake me up to work;
I pray the Lord I may not shirk.
If I should die before the night,
I pray the Lord my work's all right.
Amen."
"If you don't git up, Johnny, I won't
give you a bite to eat!"
The threat had no effect on the boy. He
clung stubbornly to sleep,
fighting for its oblivion as the dreamer fights for his dream.
The boy's
hands loosely clenched themselves, and he made feeble, spasmodic
blows at
the air. These blows were intended for his mother, but she betrayed
practised familiarity in avoiding them as she shook him roughly
by the
shoulder.
"Lemme 'lone!"
It was a cry that began, muffled, in the
deeps of sleep, that swiftly
rushed upward, like a wail, into passionate belligerence, and
that died
away and sank down into an inarticulate whine. It was a bestial
cry, as of
a soul in torment, filled with infinite protest and pain.
But she did not mind. She was a sad-eyed,
tired-faced woman, and she had
grown used to this task, which she repeated every day of her
life. She got
a grip on the bedclothes and tried to strip them down; but the
boy, ceasing
his punching, clung to them desperately. In a huddle, at the
foot of the
bed, he still remained covered. Then she tried dragging the
bedding to the
floor. The boy opposed her. She braced herself. Hers was the
superior
weight, and the boy and bedding gave, the former instinctively
following
the latter in order to shelter against the chill of the room
that bit into
his body.
As he toppled on the edge of the bed it
seemed that he must fall head-first
to the floor. But consciousness fluttered up in him. He righted
himself
and for a moment perilously balanced. Then he struck the floor
on his
feet. On the instant his mother seized him by the shoulders
and shook him.
Again his fists struck out, this time with more force and directness.
At
the same time his eyes opened. She released him. He was awake.
"All right," he mumbled.
She caught up the lamp and hurried out,
leaving him in darkness.
"You'll be docked," she warned
back to him.
He did not mind the darkness. When he
had got into his clothes, he went
out into the kitchen. His tread was very heavy for so thin and
light a
boy. His legs dragged with their own weight, which seemed unreasonable
because they were such skinny legs. He drew a broken-bottomed
chair to the
table.
"Johnny," his mother called sharply.
He arose as sharply from the chair, and,
without a word, went to the sink.
It was a greasy, filthy sink. A smell came up from the outlet.
He took no
notice of it. That a sink should smell was to him part of the
natural
order, just as it was a part of the natural order that the soap
should be
grimy with dish-water and hard to lather. Nor did he try very
hard to make
it lather. Several splashes of the cold water from the running
faucet
completed the function. He did not wash his teeth. For that
matter he had
never seen a toothbrush, nor did he know that there existed beings
in the
world who were guilty of so great a foolishness as tooth washing.
"You might wash yourself wunst a day
without bein' told," his mother
complained.
She was holding a broken lid on the pot
as she poured two cups of coffee.
He made no remark, for this was a standing quarrel between them,
and the
one thing upon which his mother was hard as adamant. "Wunst"
a day it was
compulsory that he should wash his face. He dried himself on
a greasy
towel, damp and dirty and ragged, that left his face covered
with shreds of
lint.
"I wish we didn't live so far away,"
she said, as he sat down. "I try to
do the best I can. You know that. But a dollar on the rent
is such a
savin', an' we've more room here. You know that."
He scarcely followed her. He had heard
it all before, many times. The
range of her thought was limited, and she was ever harking back
to the
hardship worked upon them by living so far from the mills.
"A dollar means more grub," he
remarked sententiously. "I'd sooner do the
walkin' an' git the grub."
He ate hurriedly, half chewing the bread
and washing the unmasticated
chunks down with coffee. The hot and muddy liquid went by the
name of
coffee. Johnny thought it was coffee--and excellent coffee.
That was one
of the few of life's illusions that remained to him. He had
never drunk
real coffee in his life.
In addition to the bread, there was a small
piece of cold pork. His mother
refilled his cup with coffee. As he was finishing the bread,
he began to
watch if more was forthcoming. She intercepted his questioning
glance.
"Now, don't be hoggish, Johnny,"
was her comment. "You've had your share.
Your brothers an' sisters are smaller'n you."
He did not answer the rebuke. He was not
much of a talker. Also, he
ceased his hungry glancing for more. He was uncomplaining, with
a patience
that was as terrible as the school in which it had been learned.
He
finished his coffee, wiped his mouth on the back of his hand,
and started
to rise.
"Wait a second," she said hastily.
"I guess the loaf kin stand you another
slice--a thin un."
There was legerdemain in her actions.
With all the seeming of cutting a
slice from the loaf for him, she put loaf and slice back in the
bread box
and conveyed to him one of her own two slices. She believed
she had
deceived him, but he had noted her sleight-of-hand. Nevertheless,
he took
the bread shamelessly. He had a philosophy that his mother,
because of her
chronic sickliness, was not much of an eater anyway.
She saw that he was chewing the bread dry,
and reached over and emptied her
coffee cup into his.
"Don't set good somehow on my stomach
this morning," she explained.
A distant whistle, prolonged and shrieking,
brought both of them to their
feet. She glanced at the tin alarm-clock on the shelf. The
hands stood at
half-past five. The rest of the factory world was just arousing
from
sleep. She drew a shawl about her shoulders, and on her head
put a dingy
hat, shapeless and ancient.
"We've got to run," she said,
turning the wick of the lamp and blowing down
the chimney.
They groped their way out and down the
stairs. It was clear and cold, and
Johnny shivered at the first contact with the outside air. The
stars had
not yet begun to pale in the sky, and the city lay in blackness.
Both
Johnny and his mother shuffled their feet as they walked. There
was no
ambition in the leg muscles to swing the feet clear of the ground.
After fifteen silent minutes, his mother
turned off to the right.
"Don't be late," was her final
warning from out of the dark that was
swallowing her up.
He made no response, steadily keeping on
his way. In the factory quarter,
doors were opening everywhere, and he was soon one of a multitude
that
pressed onward through the dark. As he entered the factory gate
the
whistle blew again. He glanced at the east. Across a ragged
sky-line of
housetops a pale light was beginning to creep. This much he
saw of the day
as he turned his back upon it and joined his work gang.
He took his place in one of many long rows
of machines. Before him, above
a bin filled with small bobbins, were large bobbins revolving
rapidly.
Upon these he wound the jute-twine of the small bobbins. The
work was
simple. All that was required was celerity. The small bobbins
were
emptied so rapidly, and there were so many large bobbins that
did the
emptying, that there were no idle moments.
He worked mechanically. When a small bobbin
ran out, he used his left hand
for a brake, stopping the large bobbin and at the same time,
with thumb and
forefinger, catching the flying end of twine. Also, at the same
time, with
his right hand, he caught up the loose twine-end of a small bobbin.
These
various acts with both hands were performed simultaneously and
swiftly.
Then there would come a flash of his hands as he looped the weaver's
knot
and released the bobbin. There was nothing difficult about weaver's
knots.
He once boasted he could tie them in his sleep. And for that
matter, he
sometimes did, toiling centuries long in a single night at tying
an endless
succession of weaver's knots.
Some of the boys shirked, wasting time
and machinery by not replacing the
small bobbins when they ran out. And there was an overseer to
prevent
this. He caught Johnny's neighbour at the trick, and boxed his
ears.
"Look at Johnny there--why ain't you
like him?" the overseer wrathfully
demanded.
Johnny's bobbins were running full blast,
but he did not thrill at the
indirect praise. There had been a time . . . but that was long
ago, very
long ago. His apathetic face was expressionless as he listened
to himself
being held up as a shining example. He was the perfect worker.
He knew
that. He had been told so, often. It was a commonplace, and
besides it
didn't seem to mean anything to him any more. From the perfect
worker he
had evolved into the perfect machine. When his work went wrong,
it was
with him as with the machine, due to faulty material. It would
have been
as possible for a perfect nail-die to cut imperfect nails as
for him to
make a mistake.
And small wonder. There had never been
a time when he had not been in
intimate relationship with machines. Machinery had almost been
bred into
him, and at any rate he had been brought up on it. Twelve years
before,
there had been a small flutter of excitement in the loom room
of this very
mill. Johnny's mother had fainted. They stretched her out on
the floor in
the midst of the shrieking machines. A couple of elderly women
were called
from their looms. The foreman assisted. And in a few minutes
there was
one more soul in the loom room than had entered by the doors.
It was
Johnny, born with the pounding, crashing roar of the looms in
his ears,
drawing with his first breath the warm, moist air that was thick
with
flying lint. He had coughed that first day in order to rid his
lungs of
the lint; and for the same reason he had coughed ever since.
The boy alongside of Johnny whimpered and
sniffed. The boy's face was
convulsed with hatred for the overseer who kept a threatening
eye on him
from a distance; but every bobbin was running full. The boy
yelled
terrible oaths into the whirling bobbins before him; but the
sound did not
carry half a dozen feet, the roaring of the room holding it in
and
containing it like a wall.
Of all this Johnny took no notice. He
had a way of accepting things.
Besides, things grow monotonous by repetition, and this particular
happening he had witnessed many times. It seemed to him as useless
to
oppose the overseer as to defy the will of a machine. Machines
were made
to go in certain ways and to perform certain tasks. It was the
same with
the overseer.
But at eleven o'clock there was excitement
in the room. In an apparently
occult way the excitement instantly permeated everywhere. The
one-legged
boy who worked on the other side of Johnny bobbed swiftly across
the floor
to a bin truck that stood empty. Into this he dived out of sight,
crutch
and all. The superintendent of the mill was coming along, accompanied
by a
young man. He was well dressed and wore a starched shirt--a
gentleman, in
Johnny's classification of men, and also, "the Inspector."
He looked sharply at the boys as he passed
along. Sometimes he stopped and
asked questions. When he did so, he was compelled to shout at
the top of
his lungs, at which moments his face was ludicrously contorted
with the
strain of making himself heard. His quick eye noted the empty
machine
alongside of Johnny's, but he said nothing. Johnny also caught
his eye,
and he stopped abruptly. He caught Johnny by the arm to draw
him back a
step from the machine; but with an exclamation of surprise he
released the
arm.
"Pretty skinny," the superintendent
laughed anxiously.
"Pipe stems," was the answer.
"Look at those legs. The boy's got the
rickets--incipient, but he's got them. If epilepsy doesn't get
him in the
end, it will be because tuberculosis gets him first."
Johnny listened, but did not understand.
Furthermore he was not interested
in future ills. There was an immediate and more serious ill
that
threatened him in the form of the inspector.
"Now, my boy, I want you to tell me
the truth," the inspector said, or
shouted, bending close to the boy's ear to make him hear. "How
old are
you?"
"Fourteen," Johnny lied, and
he lied with the full force of his lungs. So
loudly did he lie that it started him off in a dry, hacking cough
that
lifted the lint which had been settling in his lungs all morning.
"Looks sixteen at least," said
the superintendent.
"Or sixty," snapped the inspector.
"He's always looked that way."
"How long?" asked the inspector,
quickly.
"For years. Never gets a bit older."
"Or younger, I dare say. I suppose
he's worked here all those years?"
"Off and on--but that was before the
new law was passed," the
superintendent hastened to add.
"Machine idle?" the inspector
asked, pointing at the unoccupied machine
beside Johnny's, in which the part-filled bobbins were flying
like mad.
"Looks that way." The superintendent
motioned the overseer to him and
shouted in his ear and pointed at the machine. "Machine's
idle," he
reported back to the inspector.
They passed on, and Johnny returned to
his work, relieved in that the ill
had been averted. But the one-legged boy was not so fortunate.
The sharp-
eyed inspector haled him out at arms length from the bin truck.
His lips
were quivering, and his face had all the expression of one upon
whom was
fallen profound and irremediable disaster. The overseer looked
astounded,
as though for the first time he had laid eyes on the boy, while
the
superintendent's face expressed shock and displeasure.
"I know him," the inspector said.
"He's twelve years old. I've had him
discharged from three factories inside the year. This makes
the fourth."
He turned to the one-legged boy. "You
promised me, word and honour, that
you'd go to school."
The one-legged boy burst into tears. "Please,
Mr. Inspector, two babies
died on us, and we're awful poor."
"What makes you cough that way?"
the inspector demanded, as though charging
him with crime.
And as in denial of guilt, the one-legged
boy replied: "It ain't nothin'.
I jes' caught a cold last week, Mr. Inspector, that's all."
In the end the one-legged boy went out
of the room with the inspector, the
latter accompanied by the anxious and protesting superintendent.
After
that monotony settled down again. The long morning and the longer
afternoon wore away and the whistle blew for quitting time.
Darkness had
already fallen when Johnny passed out through the factory gate.
In the
interval the sun had made a golden ladder of the sky, flooded
the world
with its gracious warmth, and dropped down and disappeared in
the west
behind a ragged sky-line of housetops.
Supper was the family meal of the day--the
one meal at which Johnny
encountered his younger brothers and sisters. It partook of
the nature of
an encounter, to him, for he was very old, while they were distressingly
young. He had no patience with their excessive and amazing juvenility.
He
did not understand it. His own childhood was too far behind
him. He was
like an old and irritable man, annoyed by the turbulence of their
young
spirits that was to him arrant silliness. He glowered silently
over his
food, finding compensation in the thought that they would soon
have to go
to work. That would take the edge off of them and make them
sedate and
dignified--like him. Thus it was, after the fashion of the human,
that
Johnny made of himself a yardstick with which to measure the
universe.
During the meal, his mother explained in
various ways and with infinite
repetition that she was trying to do the best she could; so that
it was
with relief, the scant meal ended, that Johnny shoved back his
chair and
arose. He debated for a moment between bed and the front door,
and finally
went out the latter. He did not go far. He sat down on the
stoop, his
knees drawn up and his narrow shoulders drooping forward, his
elbows on his
knees and the palms of his hands supporting his chin.
As he sat there, he did no thinking. He
was just resting. So far as his
mind was concerned, it was asleep. His brothers and sisters
came out, and
with other children played noisily about him. An electric globe
at the
corner lighted their frolics. He was peevish and irritable,
that they
knew; but the spirit of adventure lured them into teasing him.
They joined
hands before him, and, keeping time with their bodies, chanted
in his face
weird and uncomplimentary doggerel. At first he snarled curses
at them--
curses he had learned from the lips of various foremen. Finding
this
futile, and remembering his dignity, he relapsed into dogged
silence.
His brother Will, next to him in age, having
just passed his tenth
birthday, was the ringleader. Johnny did not possess particularly
kindly
feelings toward him. His life had early been embittered by continual
giving over and giving way to Will. He had a definite feeling
that Will
was greatly in his debt and was ungrateful about it. In his
own playtime,
far back in the dim past, he had been robbed of a large part
of that
playtime by being compelled to take care of Will. Will was a
baby then,
and then, as now, their mother had spent her days in the mills.
To Johnny
had fallen the part of little father and little mother as well.
Will seemed to show the benefit of the
giving over and the giving way. He
was well-built, fairly rugged, as tall as his elder brother and
even
heavier. It was as though the life-blood of the one had been
diverted into
the other's veins. And in spirits it was the same. Johnny was
jaded, worn
out, without resilience, while his younger brother seemed bursting
and
spilling over with exuberance.
The mocking chant rose louder and louder.
Will leaned closer as he danced,
thrusting out his tongue. Johnny's left arm shot out and caught
the other
around the neck. At the same time he rapped his bony fist to
the other's
nose. It was a pathetically bony fist, but that it was sharp
to hurt was
evidenced by the squeal of pain it produced. The other children
were
uttering frightened cries, while Johnny's sister, Jennie, had
dashed into
the house.
He thrust Will from him, kicked him savagely
on the shins, then reached for
him and slammed him face downward in the dirt. Nor did he release
him till
the face had been rubbed into the dirt several times. Then the
mother
arrived, an anaemic whirlwind of solicitude and maternal wrath.
"Why can't he leave me alone?"
was Johnny's reply to her upbraiding.
"Can't he see I'm tired?"
"I'm as big as you," Will raged
in her arms, his face a mass of tears,
dirt, and blood. "I'm as big as you now, an' I'm goin'
to git bigger.
Then I'll lick you--see if I don't."
"You ought to be to work, seein' how
big you are," Johnny snarled. "That's
what's the matter with you. You ought to be to work. An' it's
up to your
ma to put you to work."
"But he's too young," she protested.
"He's only a little boy."
"I was younger'n him when I started
to work."
Johnny's mouth was open, further to express
the sense of unfairness that he
felt, but the mouth closed with a snap. He turned gloomily on
his heel and
stalked into the house and to bed. The door of his room was
open to let in
warmth from the kitchen. As he undressed in the semi-darkness
he could
hear his mother talking with a neighbour woman who had dropped
in. His
mother was crying, and her speech was punctuated with spiritless
sniffles.
"I can't make out what's gittin' into
Johnny," he could hear her say. "He
didn't used to be this way. He was a patient little angel.
"An' he is a good boy," she hastened
to defend. "He's worked faithful, an'
he did go to work too young. But it wasn't my fault. I do the
best I can,
I'm sure."
Prolonged sniffling from the kitchen, and
Johnny murmured to himself as his
eyelids closed down, "You betcher life I've worked faithful."
The next morning he was torn bodily by
his mother from the grip of sleep.
Then came the meagre breakfast, the tramp through the dark, and
the pale
glimpse of day across the housetops as he turned his back on
it and went in
through the factory gate. It was another day, of all the days,
and all the
days were alike.
And yet there had been variety in his life--at
the times he changed from
one job to another, or was taken sick. When he was six, he was
little
mother and father to Will and the other children still younger.
At seven
he went into the mills--winding bobbins. When he was eight,
he got work in
another mill. His new job was marvellously easy. All he had
to do was to
sit down with a little stick in his hand and guide a stream of
cloth that
flowed past him. This stream of cloth came out of the maw of
a machine,
passed over a hot roller, and went on its way elsewhere. But
he sat always
in one place, beyond the reach of daylight, a gas-jet flaring
over him,
himself part of the mechanism.
He was very happy at that job, in spite
of the moist heat, for he was still
young and in possession of dreams and illusions. And wonderful
dreams he
dreamed as he watched the steaming cloth streaming endlessly
by. But there
was no exercise about the work, no call upon his mind, and he
dreamed less
and less, while his mind grew torpid and drowsy. Nevertheless,
he earned
two dollars a week, and two dollars represented the difference
between
acute starvation and chronic underfeeding.
But when he was nine, he lost his job.
Measles was the cause of it. After
he recovered, he got work in a glass factory. The pay was better,
and the
work demanded skill. It was piecework, and the more skilful
he was, the
bigger wages he earned. Here was incentive. And under this
incentive he
developed into a remarkable worker.
It was simple work, the tying of glass
stoppers into small bottles. At his
waist he carried a bundle of twine. He held the bottles between
his knees
so that he might work with both hands. Thus, in a sitting position
and
bending over his own knees, his narrow shoulders grew humped
and his chest
was contracted for ten hours each day. This was not good for
the lungs,
but he tied three hundred dozen bottles a day.
The superintendent was very proud of him,
and brought visitors to look at
him. In ten hours three hundred dozen bottles passed through
his hands.
This meant that he had attained machine-like perfection. All
waste
movements were eliminated. Every motion of his thin arms, every
movement
of a muscle in the thin fingers, was swift and accurate. He
worked at high
tension, and the result was that he grew nervous. At night his
muscles
twitched in his sleep, and in the daytime he could not relax
and rest. He
remained keyed up and his muscles continued to twitch. Also
he grew sallow
and his lint-cough grew worse. Then pneumonia laid hold of the
feeble
lungs within the contracted chest, and he lost his job in the
glass-works.
Now he had returned to the jute mills where
he had first begun with winding
bobbins. But promotion was waiting for him. He was a good worker.
He
would next go on the starcher, and later he would go into the
loom room.
There was nothing after that except increased efficiency.
The machinery ran faster than when he had
first gone to work, and his mind
ran slower. He no longer dreamed at all, though his earlier
years had been
full of dreaming. Once he had been in love. It was when he
first began
guiding the cloth over the hot roller, and it was with the daughter
of the
superintendent. She was much older than he, a young woman, and
he had seen
her at a distance only a paltry half-dozen times. But that made
no
difference. On the surface of the cloth stream that poured past
him, he
pictured radiant futures wherein he performed prodigies of toil,
invented
miraculous machines, won to the mastership of the mills, and
in the end
took her in his arms and kissed her soberly on the brow.
But that was all in the long ago, before
he had grown too old and tired to
love. Also, she had married and gone away, and his mind had
gone to sleep.
Yet it had been a wonderful experience, and he used often to
look back upon
it as other men and women look back upon the time they believed
in fairies.
He had never believed in fairies nor Santa Claus; but he had
believed
implicitly in the smiling future his imagination had wrought
into the
steaming cloth stream.
He had become a man very early in life.
At seven, when he drew his first
wages, began his adolescence. A certain feeling of independence
crept up
in him, and the relationship between him and his mother changed.
Somehow,
as an earner and breadwinner, doing his own work in the world,
he was more
like an equal with her. Manhood, full-blown manhood, had come
when he was
eleven, at which time he had gone to work on the night shift
for six
months. No child works on the night shift and remains a child.
There had been several great events in
his life. One of these had been
when his mother bought some California prunes. Two others had
been the two
times when she cooked custard. Those had been events. He remembered
them
kindly. And at that time his mother had told him of a blissful
dish she
would sometime make--"floating island," she had called
it, "better than
custard." For years he had looked forward to the day when
he would sit
down to the table with floating island before him, until at last
he had
relegated the idea of it to the limbo of unattainable ideals.
Once he found a silver quarter lying on
the sidewalk. That, also, was a
great event in his life, withal a tragic one. He knew his duty
on the
instant the silver flashed on his eyes, before even he had picked
it up.
At home, as usual, there was not enough to eat, and home he should
have
taken it as he did his wages every Saturday night. Right conduct
in this
case was obvious; but he never had any spending of his money,
and he was
suffering from candy hunger. He was ravenous for the sweets
that only on
red-letter days he had ever tasted in his life.
He did not attempt to deceive himself.
He knew it was sin, and
deliberately he sinned when he went on a fifteen-cent candy debauch.
Ten
cents he saved for a future orgy; but not being accustomed to
the carrying
of money, he lost the ten cents. This occurred at the time when
he was
suffering all the torments of conscience, and it was to him an
act of
divine retribution. He had a frightened sense of the closeness
of an awful
and wrathful God. God had seen, and God had been swift to punish,
denying
him even the full wages of sin.
In memory he always looked back upon that
as the one great criminal deed of
his life, and at the recollection his conscience always awoke
and gave him
another twinge. It was the one skeleton in his closet. Also,
being so
made, and circumstanced, he looked back upon the deed with regret.
He was
dissatisfied with the manner in which he had spent the quarter.
He could
have invested it better, and, out of his later knowledge of the
quickness
of God, he would have beaten God out by spending the whole quarter
at one
fell swoop. In retrospect he spent the quarter a thousand times,
and each
time to better advantage.
There was one other memory of the past,
dim and faded, but stamped into his
soul everlasting by the savage feet of his father. It was more
like a
nightmare than a remembered vision of a concrete thing--more
like the race-
memory of man that makes him fall in his sleep and that goes
back to his
arboreal ancestry.
This particular memory never came to Johnny
in broad daylight when he was
wide awake. It came at night, in bed, at the moment that his
consciousness
was sinking down and losing itself in sleep. It always aroused
him to
frightened wakefulness, and for the moment, in the first sickening
start,
it seemed to him that he lay crosswise on the foot of the bed.
In the bed
were the vague forms of his father and mother. He never saw
what his
father looked like. He had but one impression of his father,
and that was
that he had savage and pitiless feet.
His earlier memories lingered with him,
but he had no late memories. All
days were alike. Yesterday or last year were the same as a thousand
years-
-or a minute. Nothing ever happened. There were no events to
mark the
march of time. Time did not march. It stood always still.
It was only
the whirling machines that moved, and they moved nowhere--in
spite of the
fact that they moved faster.
When he was fourteen, he went to work on
the starcher. It was a colossal
event. Something had at last happened that could be remembered
beyond a
night's sleep or a week's pay-day. It marked an era. It was
a machine
Olympiad, a thing to date from. "When I went to work on
the starcher," or,
"after," or "before I went to work on the starcher,"
were sentences often
on his lips.
He celebrated his sixteenth birthday by
going into the loom room and taking
a loom. Here was an incentive again, for it was piece-work.
And he
excelled, because the clay of him had been moulded by the mills
into the
perfect machine. At the end of three months he was running two
looms, and,
later, three and four.
At the end of his second year at the looms
he was turning out more yards
than any other weaver, and more than twice as much as some of
the less
skilful ones. And at home things began to prosper as he approached
the
full stature of his earning power. Not, however, that his increased
earnings were in excess of need. The children were growing up.
They ate
more. And they were going to school, and school-books cost money.
And
somehow, the faster he worked, the faster climbed the prices
of things.
Even the rent went up, though the house had fallen from bad to
worse
disrepair.
He had grown taller; but with his increased
height he seemed leaner than
ever. Also, he was more nervous. With the nervousness increased
his
peevishness and irritability. The children had learned by many
bitter
lessons to fight shy of him. His mother respected him for his
earning
power, but somehow her respect was tinctured with fear.
There was no joyousness in life for him.
The procession of the days he
never saw. The nights he slept away in twitching unconsciousness.
The
rest of the time he worked, and his consciousness was machine
consciousness. Outside this his mind was a blank. He had no
ideals, and
but one illusion; namely, that he drank excellent coffee. He
was a work-
beast. He had no mental life whatever; yet deep down in the
crypts of his
mind, unknown to him, were being weighed and sifted every hour
of his toil,
every movement of his hands, every twitch of his muscles, and
preparations
were making for a future course of action that would amaze him
and all his
little world.
It was in the late spring that he came
home from work one night aware of
unusual tiredness. There was a keen expectancy in the air as
he sat down
to the table, but he did not notice. He went through the meal
in moody
silence, mechanically eating what was before him. The children
um'd and
ah'd and made smacking noises with their mouths. But he was
deaf to them.
"D'ye know what you're eatin'?"
his mother demanded at last, desperately.
He looked vacantly at the dish before him,
and vacantly at her.
"Floatin' island," she announced
triumphantly.
"Oh," he said.
"Floating island!" the children
chorussed loudly.
"Oh," he said. And after two
or three mouthfuls, he added, "I guess I
ain't hungry to-night."
He dropped the spoon, shoved back his chair,
and arose wearily from the
table.
"An' I guess I'll go to bed."
His feet dragged more heavily than usual
as he crossed the kitchen floor.
Undressing was a Titan's task, a monstrous futility, and he wept
weakly as
he crawled into bed, one shoe still on. He was aware of a rising,
swelling
something inside his head that made his brain thick and fuzzy.
His lean
fingers felt as big as his wrist, while in the ends of them was
a
remoteness of sensation vague and fuzzy like his brain. The
small of his
back ached intolerably. All his bones ached. He ached everywhere.
And in
his head began the shrieking, pounding, crashing, roaring of
a million
looms. All space was filled with flying shuttles. They darted
in and out,
intricately, amongst the stars. He worked a thousand looms himself,
and
ever they speeded up, faster and faster, and his brain unwound,
faster and
faster, and became the thread that fed the thousand flying shuttles.
He did not go to work next morning. He
was too busy weaving colossally on
the thousand looms that ran inside his head. His mother went
to work, but
first she sent for the doctor. It was a severe attack of la
grippe, he
said. Jennie served as nurse and carried out his instructions.
It was a very severe attack, and it was
a week before Johnny dressed and
tottered feebly across the floor. Another week, the doctor said,
and he
would be fit to return to work. The foreman of the loom room
visited him
on Sunday afternoon, the first day of his convalescence. The
best weaver
in the room, the foreman told his mother. His job would be held
for him.
He could come back to work a week from Monday.
"Why don't you thank 'im, Johnny?"
his mother asked anxiously.
"He's ben that sick he ain't himself
yet," she explained apologetically to
the visitor.
Johnny sat hunched up and gazing steadfastly
at the floor. He sat in the
same position long after the foreman had gone. It was warm outdoors,
and
he sat on the stoop in the afternoon. Sometimes his lips moved.
He seemed
lost in endless calculations.
Next morning, after the day grew warm,
he took his seat on the stoop. He
had pencil and paper this time with which to continue his calculations,
and
he calculated painfully and amazingly.
"What comes after millions?"
he asked at noon, when Will came home from
school. "An' how d'ye work 'em?"
That afternoon finished his task. Each
day, but without paper and pencil,
he returned to the stoop. He was greatly absorbed in the one
tree that
grew across the street. He studied it for hours at a time, and
was
unusually interested when the wind swayed its branches and fluttered
its
leaves. Throughout the week he seemed lost in a great communion
with
himself. On Sunday, sitting on the stoop, he laughed aloud,
several times,
to the perturbation of his mother, who had not heard him laugh
for years.
Next morning, in the early darkness, she
came to his bed to rouse him. He
had had his fill of sleep all the week, and awoke easily. He
made no
struggle, nor did he attempt to hold on to the bedding when she
stripped it
from him. He lay quietly, and spoke quietly.
"It ain't no use, ma."
"You'll be late," she said, under
the impression that he was still stupid
with sleep.
"I'm awake, ma, an' I tell you it
ain't no use. You might as well lemme
alone. I ain't goin' to git up."
"But you'll lose your job!" she
cried.
"I ain't goin' to git up," he
repeated in a strange, passionless voice.
She did not go to work herself that morning.
This was sickness beyond any
sickness she had ever known. Fever and delirium she could understand;
but
this was insanity. She pulled the bedding up over him and sent
Jennie for
the doctor.
When that person arrived, Johnny was sleeping
gently, and gently he awoke
and allowed his pulse to be taken.
"Nothing the matter with him,"
the doctor reported. "Badly debilitated,
that's all. Not much meat on his bones."
"He's always been that way,"
his mother volunteered.
"Now go 'way, ma, an' let me finish
my snooze."
Johnny spoke sweetly and placidly, and
sweetly and placidly he rolled over
on his side and went to sleep.
At ten o'clock he awoke and dressed himself.
He walked out into the
kitchen, where he found his mother with a frightened expression
on her
face.
"I'm goin' away, ma," he announced,
"an' I jes' want to say good-bye."
She threw her apron over her head and sat
down suddenly and wept. He
waited patiently.
"I might a-known it," she was
sobbing.
"Where?" she finally asked, removing
the apron from her head and gazing up
at him with a stricken face in which there was little curiosity.
"I don't know--anywhere."
As he spoke, the tree across the street
appeared with dazzling brightness
on his inner vision. It seemed to lurk just under his eyelids,
and he
could see it whenever he wished.
"An' your job?" she quavered.
"I ain't never goin' to work again."
"My God, Johnny!" she wailed,
"don't say that!"
What he had said was blasphemy to her.
As a mother who hears her child
deny God, was Johnny's mother shocked by his words.
"What's got into you, anyway?"
she demanded, with a lame attempt at
imperativeness.
"Figures," he answered. "Jes'
figures. I've ben doin' a lot of figurin'
this week, an' it's most surprisin'."
"I don't see what that's got to do
with it," she sniffled.
Johnny smiled patiently, and his mother
was aware of a distinct shock at
the persistent absence of his peevishness and irritability.
"I'll show you," he said. "I'm
plum' tired out. What makes me tired?
Moves. I've ben movin' ever since I was born. I'm tired of
movin', an' I
ain't goin' to move any more. Remember when I worked in the
glass-house?
I used to do three hundred dozen a day. Now I reckon I made
about ten
different moves to each bottle. That's thirty-six thousan' moves
a day.
Ten days, three hundred an' sixty thousan' moves. One month,
one million
an' eighty thousan' moves. Chuck out the eighty thousan'"--he
spoke with
the complacent beneficence of a philanthropist--"chuck out
the eighty
thousan', that leaves a million moves a month--twelve million
moves a year.
"At the looms I'm movin' twic'st as
much. That makes twenty-five million
moves a year, an' it seems to me I've ben a movin' that way 'most
a million
years.
"Now this week I ain't moved at all.
I ain't made one move in hours an'
hours. I tell you it was swell, jes' settin' there, hours an'
hours, an'
doin' nothin'. I ain't never ben happy before. I never had
any time.
I've ben movin' all the time. That ain't no way to be happy.
An' I ain't
going to do it any more. I'm jes' goin' to set, an' set, an'
rest, an'
rest, and then rest some more."
"But what's goin' to come of Will
an' the children?" she asked
despairingly.
"That's it, 'Will an' the children,'"
he repeated.
But there was no bitterness in his voice.
He had long known his mother's
ambition for the younger boy, but the thought of it no longer
rankled.
Nothing mattered any more. Not even that.
"I know, ma, what you've ben plannin'
for Will--keepin' him in school to
make a book-keeper out of him. But it ain't no use, I've quit.
He's got
to go to work."
"An' after I have brung you up the
way I have," she wept, starting to cover
her head with the apron and changing her mind.
"You never brung me up," he answered
with sad kindliness. "I brung myself
up, ma, an' I brung up Will. He's bigger'n me, an' heavier,
an' taller.
When I was a kid, I reckon I didn't git enough to eat. When
he come along
an' was a kid, I was workin' an' earnin' grub for him too. But
that's done
with. Will can go to work, same as me, or he can go to hell,
I don't care
which. I'm tired. I'm goin' now. Ain't you goin' to say goodbye?"
She made no reply. The apron had gone
over her head again, and she was
crying. He paused a moment in the doorway.
"I'm sure I done the best I knew how,"
she was sobbing.
He passed out of the house and down the
street. A wan delight came into
his face at the sight of the lone tree. "Jes' ain't goin'
to do nothin',"
he said to himself, half aloud, in a crooning tone. He glanced
wistfully
up at the sky, but the bright sun dazzled and blinded him.
It was a long walk he took, and he did
not walk fast. It took him past the
jute-mill. The muffled roar of the loom room came to his ears,
and he
smiled. It was a gentle, placid smile. He hated no one, not
even the
pounding, shrieking machines. There was no bitterness in him,
nothing but
an inordinate hunger for rest.
The houses and factories thinned out and
the open spaces increased as he
approached the country. At last the city was behind him, and
he was
walking down a leafy lane beside the railroad track. He did
not walk like
a man. He did not look like a man. He was a travesty of the
human. It
was a twisted and stunted and nameless piece of life that shambled
like a
sickly ape, arms loose-hanging, stoop-shouldered, narrow-chested,
grotesque
and terrible.
He passed by a small railroad station and
lay down in the grass under a
tree. All afternoon he lay there. Sometimes he dozed, with
muscles that
twitched in his sleep. When awake, he lay without movement,
watching the
birds or looking up at the sky through the branches of the tree
above him.
Once or twice he laughed aloud, but without relevance to anything
he had
seen or felt.
After twilight had gone, in the first darkness
of the night, a freight
train rumbled into the station. When the engine was switching
cars on to
the side-track, Johnny crept along the side of the train. He
pulled open
the side-door of an empty box-car and awkwardly and laboriously
climbed in.
He closed the door. The engine whistled. Johnny was lying down,
and in
the darkness he smiled.
A WICKED WOMAN
It was because she had broken with Billy
that Loretta had come visiting to
Santa Clara. Billy could not understand. His sister had reported
that he
had walked the floor and cried all night. Loretta had not slept
all night
either, while she had wept most of the night. Daisy knew this,
because it
was in her arms that the weeping had been done. And Daisy's
husband,
Captain Kitt, knew, too. The tears of Loretta, and the comforting
by
Daisy, had lost him some sleep.
Now Captain Kitt did not like to lose sleep.
Neither did he want Loretta
to marry Billy--nor anybody else. It was Captain Kitt's belief
that Daisy
needed the help of her younger sister in the household. But
he did not say
this aloud. Instead, he always insisted that Loretta was too
young to
think of marriage. So it was Captain Kitt's idea that Loretta
should be
packed off on a visit to Mrs. Hemingway. There wouldn't be any
Billy
there.
Before Loretta had been at Santa Clara
a week, she was convinced that
Captain Kitt's idea was a good one. In the first place, though
Billy
wouldn't believe it, she did not want to marry Billy. And in
the second
place, though Captain Kitt wouldn't believe it, she did not want
to leave
Daisy. By the time Loretta had been at Santa Clara two weeks,
she was
absolutely certain that she did not want to marry Billy. But
she was not
so sure about not wanting to leave Daisy. Not that she loved
Daisy less,
but that she--had doubts.
The day of Loretta's arrival, a nebulous
plan began shaping itself in Mrs.
Hemingway's brain. The second day she remarked to Jack Hemingway,
her
husband, that Loretta was so innocent a young thing that were
it not for
her sweet guilelessness she would be positively stupid. In proof
of which,
Mrs. Hemingway told her husband several things that made him
chuckle. By
the third day Mrs. Hemingway's plan had taken recognizable form.
Then it
was that she composed a letter. On the envelope she wrote: "Mr.
Edward
Bashford, Athenian Club, San Francisco."
"Dear Ned," the letter began.
She had once been violently loved by him for
three weeks in her pre-marital days. But she had covenanted
herself to
Jack Hemingway, who had prior claims, and her heart as well;
and Ned
Bashford had philosophically not broken his heart over it. He
merely added
the experience to a large fund of similarly collected data out
of which he
manufactured philosophy. Artistically and temperamentally he
was a Greek--
a tired Greek. He was fond of quoting from Nietzsche, in token
that he,
too, had passed through the long sickness that follows upon the
ardent
search for truth; that he too had emerged, too experienced, too
shrewd, too
profound, ever again to be afflicted by the madness of youths
in their love
of truth. "'To worship appearance,'" he often quoted;
"'to believe in
forms, in tones, in words, in the whole Olympus of appearance!'"
This
particular excerpt he always concluded with, "'Those Greeks
were
superficial--OUT OF PROFUNDITY!'"
He was a fairly young Greek, jaded and
worn. Women were faithless and
unveracious, he held--at such times that he had relapses and
descended to
pessimism from his wonted high philosophical calm. He did not
believe in
the truth of women; but, faithful to his German master, he did
not strip
from them the airy gauzes that veiled their untruth. He was
content to
accept them as appearances and to make the best of it. He was
superficial-
-OUT OF PROFUNDITY.
"Jack says to be sure to say to you,
'good swimming,'" Mrs. Hemingway wrote
in her letter; "and also 'to bring your fishing duds along.'"
Mrs.
Hemingway wrote other things in the letter. She told him that
at last she
was prepared to exhibit to him an absolutely true, unsullied,
and innocent
woman. "A more guileless, immaculate bud of womanhood never
blushed on the
planet," was one of the several ways in which she phrased
the inducement.
And to her husband she said triumphantly, "If I don't marry
Ned off this
time--" leaving unstated the terrible alternative that she
lacked either
vocabulary to express or imagination to conceive.
Contrary to all her forebodings, Loretta
found that she was not unhappy at
Santa Clara. Truly, Billy wrote to her every day, but his letters
were
less distressing than his presence. Also, the ordeal of being
away from
Daisy was not so severe as she had expected. For the first time
in her
life she was not lost in eclipse in the blaze of Daisy's brilliant
and
mature personality. Under such favourable circumstances Loretta
came
rapidly to the front, while Mrs. Hemingway modestly and shamelessly
retreated into the background.
Loretta began to discover that she was
not a pale orb shining by
reflection. Quite unconsciously she became a small centre of
things. When
she was at the piano, there was some one to turn the pages for
her and to
express preferences for certain songs. When she dropped her
handkerchief,
there was some one to pick it up. And there was some one to
accompany her
in ramblings and flower gatherings. Also, she learned to cast
flies in
still pools and below savage riffles, and how not to entangle
silk lines
and gut-leaders with the shrubbery.
Jack Hemingway did not care to teach beginners,
and fished much by himself,
or not at all, thus giving Ned Bashford ample time in which to
consider
Loretta as an appearance. As such, she was all that his philosophy
demanded. Her blue eyes had the direct gaze of a boy, and out
of his
profundity he delighted in them and forbore to shudder at the
duplicity his
philosophy bade him to believe lurked in their depths. She had
the grace
of a slender flower, the fragility of colour and line of fine
china, in all
of which he pleasured greatly, without thought of the Life Force
palpitating beneath and in spite of Bernard Shaw--in whom he
believed.
Loretta burgeoned. She swiftly developed
personality. She discovered a
will of her own and wishes of her own that were not everlastingly
entwined
with the will and the wishes of Daisy. She was petted by Jack
Hemingway,
spoiled by Alice Hemingway, and devotedly attended by Ned Bashford.
They
encouraged her whims and laughed at her follies, while she developed
the
pretty little tyrannies that are latent in all pretty and delicate
women.
Her environment acted as a soporific upon her ancient desire
always to live
with Daisy. This desire no longer prodded her as in the days
of her
companionship with Billy. The more she saw of Billy, the more
certain she
had been that she could not live away from Daisy. The more she
saw of Ned
Bashford, the more she forgot her pressing need of Daisy.
Ned Bashford likewise did some forgetting.
He confused superficiality with
profundity, and entangled appearance with reality until he accounted
them
one. Loretta was different from other women. There was no masquerade
about her. She was real. He said as much to Mrs. Hemingway,
and more, who
agreed with him and at the same time caught her husband's eyelid
drooping
down for the moment in an unmistakable wink.
It was at this time that Loretta received
a letter from Billy that was
somewhat different from his others. In the main, like all his
letters, it
was pathological. It was a long recital of symptoms and sufferings,
his
nervousness, his sleeplessness, and the state of his heart.
Then followed
reproaches, such as he had never made before. They were sharp
enough to
make her weep, and true enough to put tragedy into her face.
This tragedy
she carried down to the breakfast table. It made Jack and Mrs.
Hemingway
speculative, and it worried Ned. They glanced to him for explanation,
but
he shook his head.
"I'll find out to-night," Mrs.
Hemingway said to her husband.
But Ned caught Loretta in the afternoon
in the big living-room. She tried
to turn away. He caught her hands, and she faced him with wet
lashes and
trembling lips. He looked at her, silently and kindly. The
lashes grew
wetter.
"There, there, don't cry, little one,"
he said soothingly.
He put his arm protectingly around her
shoulder. And to his shoulder, like
a tired child, she turned her face. He thrilled in ways unusual
for a
Greek who has recovered from the long sickness.
"Oh, Ned," she sobbed on his
shoulder, "if you only knew how wicked I am!"
He smiled indulgently, and breathed in
a great breath freighted with the
fragrance of her hair. He thought of his world-experience of
women, and
drew another long breath. There seemed to emanate from her the
perfect
sweetness of a child--"the aura of a white soul," was
the way he phrased it
to himself.
Then he noticed that her sobs were increasing.
"What's the matter, little one?"
he asked pettingly and almost paternally.
"Has Jack been bullying you? Or has your dearly beloved
sister failed to
write?"
She did not answer, and he felt that he
really must kiss her hair, that he
could not be responsible if the situation continued much longer.
"Tell me," he said gently, "and
we'll see what I can do."
"I can't. You will despise me.--Oh,
Ned, I am so ashamed!"
He laughed incredulously, and lightly touched
her hair with his lips--so
lightly that she did not know.
"Dear little one, let us forget all
about it, whatever it is. I want to
tell you how I love--"
She uttered a sharp cry that was all delight,
and then moaned--
"Too late!"
"Too late?" he echoed in surprise.
"Oh, why did I? Why did I?"
she was moaning.
He was aware of a swift chill at his heart.
"What?" he asked.
"Oh, I . . . he . . . Billy.
"I am such a wicked woman, Ned. I
know you will never speak to me again."
"This--er--this Billy," he began
haltingly. "He is your brother?"
"No . . . he . . . I didn't know.
I was so young. I could not help it.
Oh, I shall go mad! I shall go mad!"
It was then that Loretta felt his shoulder
and the encircling arm become
limp. He drew away from her gently, and gently he deposited
her in a big
chair, where she buried her face and sobbed afresh. He twisted
his
moustache fiercely, then drew up another chair and sat down.
"I--I do not understand," he
said.
"I am so unhappy," she wailed.
"Why unhappy?"
"Because . . . he . . . he wants me
to marry him."
His face cleared on the instant, and he
placed a hand soothingly on hers.
"That should not make any girl unhappy,"
he remarked sagely. "Because you
don't love him is no reason--of course, you don't love him?"
Loretta shook her head and shoulders in
a vigorous negative.
"What?"
Bashford wanted to make sure.
"No," she asserted explosively.
"I don't love Billy! I don't want to love
Billy!"
"Because you don't love him,"
Bashford resumed with confidence, "is no
reason that you should be unhappy just because he has proposed
to you."
She sobbed again, and from the midst of
her sobs she cried--
"That's the trouble. I wish I did
love him. Oh, I wish I were dead!"
"Now, my dear child, you are worrying
yourself over trifles." His other
hand crossed over after its mate and rested on hers. "Women
do it every
day. Because you have changed your mind or did not know your
mind, because
you have--to use an unnecessarily harsh word--jilted a man--"
"Jilted!" She had raised her
head and was looking at him with tear-dimmed
eyes. "Oh, Ned, if that were all!"
"All?" he asked in a hollow voice,
while his hands slowly retreated from
hers. He was about to speak further, then remained silent.
"But I don't want to marry him,"
Loretta broke forth protestingly.
"Then I shouldn't," he counselled.
"But I ought to marry him."
"OUGHT to marry him?"
She nodded.
"That is a strong word."
"I know it is," she acquiesced,
while she strove to control her trembling
lips. Then she spoke more calmly. "I am a wicked woman,
a terribly wicked
woman. No one knows how wicked I am--except Billy."
There was a pause. Ned Bashford's face
was grave, and he looked queerly at
Loretta.
"He--Billy knows?" he asked finally.
A reluctant nod and flaming cheeks was
the reply.
He debated with himself for a while, seeming,
like a diver, to be preparing
himself for the plunge.
"Tell me about it." He spoke
very firmly. "You must tell me all of it."
"And will you--ever--forgive me?"
she asked in a faint, small voice.
He hesitated, drew a long breath, and made
the plunge.
"Yes," he said desperately.
"I'll forgive you. Go ahead."
"There was no one to tell me,"
she began. "We were with each other so
much. I did not know anything of the world--then."
She paused to meditate. Bashford was biting
his lip impatiently.
"If I had only known--"
She paused again.
"Yes, go on," he urged.
"We were together almost every evening."
"Billy?" he demanded, with a
savageness that startled her.
"Yes, of course, Billy. We were with
each other so much . . . If I had
only known . . . There was no one to tell me . . . I was so
young--"
Her lips parted as though to speak further,
and she regarded him anxiously.
"The scoundrel!"
With the explosion Ned Bashford was on
his feet, no longer a tired Greek,
but a violently angry young man.
"Billy is not a scoundrel; he is a
good man," Loretta defended, with a
firmness that surprised Bashford.
"I suppose you'll be telling me next
that it was all your fault," he said
sarcastically.
She nodded.
"What?" he shouted.
"It was all my fault," she said
steadily. "I should never have let him. I
was to blame."
Bashford ceased from his pacing up and
down, and when he spoke, his voice
was resigned.
"All right," he said. "I
don't blame you in the least, Loretta. And you
have been very honest. But Billy is right, and you are wrong.
You must
get married."
"To Billy?" she asked, in a dim,
far-away voice.
"Yes, to Billy. I'll see to it.
Where does he live? I'll make him."
"But I don't want to marry Billy!"
she cried out in alarm. "Oh, Ned, you
won't do that?"
"I shall," he answered sternly.
"You must. And Billy must. Do you
understand?"
Loretta buried her face in the cushioned
chair back, and broke into a
passionate storm of sobs.
All that Bashford could make out at first,
as he listened, was: "But I
don't want to leave Daisy! I don't want to leave Daisy!"
He paced grimly back and forth, then stopped
curiously to listen.
"How was I to know?--Boo--hoo,"
Loretta was crying. "He didn't tell me.
Nobody else ever kissed me. I never dreamed a kiss could be
so terrible .
. . until, boo-hoo . . . until he wrote to me. I only got the
letter this
morning."
His face brightened. It seemed as though
light was dawning on him.
"Is that what you're crying about?"
"N--no."
His heart sank.
"Then what are you crying about?"
he asked in a hopeless voice.
"Because you said I had to marry Billy.
And I don't want to marry Billy.
I don't want to leave Daisy. I don't know what I want. I wish
I were
dead."
He nerved himself for another effort.
"Now look here, Loretta, be sensible.
What is this about kisses. You
haven't told me everything?"
"I--I don't want to tell you everything."
She looked at him beseechingly in the silence
that fell.
"Must I?" she quavered finally.
"You must," he said imperatively.
"You must tell me everything."
"Well, then . . . must I?"
"You must."
"He . . . I . . . we . . ." she
began flounderingly. Then blurted out, "I
let him, and he kissed me."
"Go on," Bashford commanded desperately.
"That's all," she answered.
"All?" There was a vast incredulity
in his voice.
"All?" In her voice was an interrogation
no less vast.
"I mean--er--nothing worse?"
He was overwhelmingly aware of his own
awkwardness.
"Worse?" She was frankly puzzled.
"As though there could be! Billy said-
-"
"When did he say it?" Bashford
demanded abruptly.
"In his letter I got this morning.
Billy said that my . . . our . . . our
kisses were terrible if we didn't get married."
Bashford's head was swimming.
"What else did Billy say?" he
asked.
"He said that when a woman allowed
a man to kiss her, she always married
him--that it was terrible if she didn't. It was the custom,
he said; and I
say it is a bad, wicked custom, and I don't like it. I know
I'm terrible,"
she added defiantly, "but I can't help it."
Bashford absent-mindedly brought out a
cigarette.
"Do you mind if I smoke?" he
asked, as he struck a match.
Then he came to himself.
"I beg your pardon," he cried,
flinging away match and cigarette. "I don't
want to smoke. I didn't mean that at all. What I mean is--"
He bent over Loretta, caught her hands
in his, then sat on the arm of the
chair and softly put one arm around her.
"Loretta, I am a fool. I mean it.
And I mean something more. I want you
to be my wife."
He waited anxiously in the pause that followed.
"You might answer me," he urged.
"I will . . . if--"
"Yes, go on. If what?"
"If I don't have to marry Billy."
"You can't marry both of us,"
he almost shouted.
"And it isn't the custom . . . what.
. . what Billy said?"
"No, it isn't the custom. Now, Loretta,
will you marry me?"
"Don't be angry with me," she
pouted demurely.
He gathered her into his arms and kissed
her.
"I wish it were the custom,"
she said in a faint voice, from the midst of
the embrace, "because then I'd have to marry you, Ned dear
. . . wouldn't
I?"
JUST MEAT
He strolled to the corner and glanced up
and down the intersecting street,
but saw nothing save the oases of light shed by the street lamps
at the
successive crossings. Then he strolled back the way he had come.
He was a
shadow of a man, sliding noiselessly and without undue movement
through the
semi-darkness. Also he was very alert, like a wild animal in
the jungle,
keenly perceptive and receptive. The movement of another in
the darkness
about him would need to have been more shadowy than he to have
escaped him.
In addition to the running advertisement
of the state of affairs carried to
him by his senses, he had a subtler perception, a FEEL, of the
atmosphere
around him. He knew that the house in front of which he paused
for a
moment, contained children. Yet by no willed effort of perception
did he
have this knowledge. For that matter, he was not even aware
that he knew,
so occult was the impression. Yet, did a moment arise in which
action, in
relation to that house, were imperative, he would have acted
on the
assumption that it contained children. He was not aware of all
that he
knew about the neighbourhood.
In the same way, he knew not how, he knew
that no danger threatened in the
footfalls that came up the cross street. Before he saw the walker,
he knew
him for a belated pedestrian hurrying home. The walker came
into view at
the crossing and disappeared on up the street. The man that
watched, noted
a light that flared up in the window of a house on the corner,
and as it
died down he knew it for an expiring match. This was conscious
identification of familiar phenomena, and through his mind flitted
the
thought, "Wanted to know what time." In another house
one room was
lighted. The light burned dimly and steadily, and he had the
feel that it
was a sick-room.
He was especially interested in a house
across the street in the middle of
the block. To this house he paid most attention. No matter
what way he
looked, nor what way he walked, his looks and his steps always
returned to
it. Except for an open window above the porch, there was nothing
unusual
about the house. Nothing came in nor out. Nothing happened.
There were
no lighted windows, nor had lights appeared and disappeared in
any of the
windows. Yet it was the central point of his consideration.
He rallied to
it each time after a divination of the state of the neighbourhood.
Despite his feel of things, he was not
confident. He was supremely
conscious of the precariousness of his situation. Though unperturbed
by
the footfalls of the chance pedestrian, he was as keyed up and
sensitive
and ready to be startled as any timorous deer. He was aware
of the
possibility of other intelligences prowling about in the darkness--
intelligences similar to his own in movement, perception, and
divination.
Far down the street he caught a glimpse
of something that moved. And he
knew it was no late home-goer, but menace and danger. He whistled
twice to
the house across the street, then faded away shadow-like to the
corner and
around the corner. Here he paused and looked about him carefully.
Reassured, he peered back around the corner and studied the object
that
moved and that was coming nearer. He had divined aright. It
was a
policeman.
The man went down the cross street to the
next corner, from the shelter of
which he watched the corner he had just left. He saw the policeman
pass
by, going straight on up the street. He paralleled the policeman's
course,
and from the next corner again watched him go by; then he returned
the way
he had come. He whistled once to the house across the street,
and after a
time whistled once again. There was reassurance in the whistle,
just as
there had been warning in the previous double whistle.
He saw a dark bulk outline itself on the
roof of the porch and slowly
descend a pillar. Then it came down the steps, passed through
the small
iron gate, and went down the sidewalk, taking on the form of
a man. He
that watched kept on his own side of the street and moved on
abreast to the
corner, where he crossed over and joined the other. He was quite
small
alongside the man he accosted.
"How'd you make out, Matt?" he
asked.
The other grunted indistinctly, and walked
on in silence a few steps.
"I reckon I landed the goods,"
he said.
Jim chuckled in the darkness, and waited
for further information. The
blocks passed by under their feet, and he grew impatient.
"Well, how about them goods?"
he asked. "What kind of a haul did you make,
anyway?"
"I was too busy to figger it out,
but it's fat. I can tell you that much,
Jim, it's fat. I don't dast to think how fat it is. Wait till
we get to
the room."
Jim looked at him keenly under the street
lamp of the next crossing, and
saw that his face was a trifle grim and that he carried his left
arm
peculiarly.
"What's the matter with your arm?"
he demanded.
"The little cuss bit me. Hope I don't
get hydrophoby. Folks gets
hydrophoby from manbite sometimes, don't they?"
"Gave you fight, eh?" Jim asked
encouragingly.
The other grunted.
"You're harder'n hell to get information
from," Jim burst out irritably.
"Tell us about it. You ain't goin' to lose money just a-tellin'
a guy."
"I guess I choked him some,"
came the answer. Then, by way of explanation,
"He woke up on me."
"You did it neat. I never heard a
sound."
"Jim," the other said with seriousness,
"it's a hangin' matter. I fixed
'm. I had to. He woke up on me. You an' me's got to do some
layin' low
for a spell."
Jim gave a low whistle of comprehension.
"Did you hear me whistle?" he
asked suddenly.
"Sure. I was all done. I was just
comin' out."
"It was a bull. But he wasn't on
a little bit. Went right by an' kept a-
paddin' the hoof out a sight. Then I come back an' gave you
the whistle.
What made you take so long after that?"
"I was waitin' to make sure,"
Matt explained. "I was mighty glad when I
heard you whistle again. It's hard work waitin'. I just sat
there an'
thought an' thought . . . oh, all kinds' of things. It's remarkable
what a
fellow'll think about. And then there was a darn cat that kept
movin'
around the house all' botherin' me with its noises."
"An' it's fat!" Jim exclaimed
irrelevantly and with joy.
"I'm sure tellin' you, Jim, it's fat.
I'm plum' anxious for another look
at 'em."
Unconsciously the two men quickened their
pace. Yet they did not relax
from their caution. Twice they changed their course in order
to avoid
policemen, and they made very sure that they were not observed
when they
dived into the dark hallway of a cheap rooming house down town.
Not until they had gained their own room
on the top floor, did they scratch
a match. While Jim lighted a lamp, Matt locked the door and
threw the
bolts into place. As he turned, he noticed that his partner
was waiting
expectantly. Matt smiled to himself at the other's eagerness.
"Them search-lights is all right,"
he said, drawing forth a small pocket
electric lamp and examining it. "But we got to get a new
battery. It's
runnin' pretty weak. I thought once or twice it'd leave me in
the dark.
Funny arrangements in that house. I near got lost. His room
was on the
left, an' that fooled me some."
"I told you it was on the left,"
Jim interrupted.
"You told me it was on the right,"
Matt went on. "I guess I know what you
told me, an' there's the map you drew."
Fumbling in his vest pocket, he drew out
a folded slip of paper. As he
unfolded it, Jim bent over and looked.
"I did make a mistake," he confessed.
"You sure did. It got me guessin'
some for a while."
"But it don't matter now," Jim
cried. "Let's see what you got."
"It does matter," Matt retorted.
"It matters a lot . . . to me. I've got
to run all the risk. I put my head in the trap while you stay
on the
street. You got to get on to yourself an' be more careful.
All right,
I'll show you."
He dipped loosely into his trousers pocket
and brought out a handful of
small diamonds. He spilled them out in a blazing stream on the
greasy
table. Jim let out a great oath.
"That's nothing," Matt said with
triumphant complacence. "I ain't begun
yet."
From one pocket after another he continued
bringing forth the spoil. There
were many diamonds wrapped in chamois skin that were larger than
those in
the first handful. From one pocket he brought out a handful
of very small
cut gems.
"Sun dust," he remarked, as he
spilled them on the table in a space by
themselves.
Jim examined them.
"Just the same, they retail for a
couple of dollars each," he said. "Is
that all?"
"Ain't it enough?" the other
demanded in an aggrieved tone.
"Sure it is," Jim answered with
unqualified approval. "Better'n I
expected. I wouldn't take a cent less than ten thousan' for
the bunch."
"Ten thousan'," Matt sneered.
"They're worth twic't that, an' I don't know
anything about joolery, either. Look at that big boy!"
He picked it out from the sparkling heap
and held it near to the lamp with
the air of an expert, weighing and judging.
"Worth a thousan' all by its lonely,"
was Jim's quicker judgment.
"A thousan' your grandmother,"
was Matt's scornful rejoinder. "You
couldn't buy it for three."
"Wake me up! I'm dreamin'!"
The sparkle of the gems was in Jim's eyes, and
he began sorting out the larger diamonds and examining them.
"We're rich
men, Matt--we'll be regular swells."
"It'll take years to get rid of 'em,"
was Matt's more practical thought.
"But think how we'll live! Nothin'
to do but spend the money an' go on
gettin' rid of em."
Matt's eyes were beginning to sparkle,
though sombrely, as his phlegmatic
nature woke up.
"I told you I didn't dast think how
fat it was," he murmured in a low
voice.
"What a killin'! What a killin'!"
was the other's more ecstatic utterance.
"I almost forgot," Matt said,
thrusting his hand into his inside coat
pocket.
A string of large pearls emerged from wrappings
of tissue paper and chamois
skin. Jim scarcely glanced at them.
"They're worth money," he said,
and returned to the diamonds.
A silence fell on the two men. Jim played
with the gems, running them
through his fingers, sorting them into piles, and spreading them
out flat
and wide. He was a slender, weazened man, nervous, irritable,
high-strung,
and anaemic--a typical child of the gutter, with unbeautiful
twisted
features, small-eyed, with face and mouth perpetually and feverishly
hungry, brutish in a cat-like way, stamped to the core with degeneracy.
Matt did not finger the diamonds. He sat
with chin on hands and elbows on
table, blinking heavily at the blazing array. He wa |